Big Battles and little victories

Cancer World is a place of wars.  We battle infection, bad cells, nausea, headaches, hives, memory loss, aches, mouth sores, diarrhea, weight loss, high blood sugar, low blood sugar, sleeplessness, exhaustion, fevers, fungus and a million other things.  But most of all we fight to keep hopeful.

Cancer World reshapes your view of the world.  Everything you believe to be true comes into question.  Life's fairness, the justice in the universe, the existence of god, karma, and your organizational skills.

It is all so so much. 

Today marks the 32nd day we have been back in Cancer World in full on battle.   She has had 15 doses of chemo therapy, lost her hair, lost 15 pounds, had four trips to the OR/Procedure room and still carries on with great promise and hope.

Today there was a victory.  The accumulation of 338 Neutriphils enable us to De-camp and come home.  We did not even unpack but rather just both went to bed in our own beds.  We fell asleep for a couple of hours.  No rushing, no waiting, no worry about counts or what the next meal will be.  Just sleep.  A small victory for today ad all we needed to do to keep doing what needs to be done.