So maybe in Cancer World it is just a distraction a way to keep your mind off the next test, the next round of chemo, the next possible heavy blow. Cancer part one was wimpy compared to this more "Competitive" version.
First time: 26,000 white blood cells
Second time: 225,000 white blood cells.
First ANC report for M-E 18
First ANC for Allie 72
Now we want more Neutrophils and don't even know how to get them.
Darn.... We do know that Meb's bone marrow has started to work but I am thinking it is not giving the old college try. Not working out fast enough, not doing enough drills, not paying attention to the docs and the residents and only sort of paying attention to the ANC dance (Go Dr. Erin)
Yesterday when Mary-E's line would accept drugs and chemo but would not give back blood, she was willing to submit to a real blood draw to see what her number were and they dropped a bit.
A month ago, no one was thinking about ANC's and platelet counts and how much hair could come out in one brushful. No one was wondering how much someone could drink and "eliminate" in a day. No one was worried about how much blood one body could soak up in a day or a week. It was all just about the next test, the next project or the next baking adventure.
Now it is about lab tests and results, HLA typing, getting into remission, getting to transplant, getting a match, getting the next chemo without ALL of the side effects.
It is a fight and a competition against bone marrow and mechanisms that create cells and divide and do things no one understands completely.
"What make the bone marrow switch from making reds and platelets to Neutrophils" asks Sally...
"We don't know" answer the Docs.
"What make Likemia return?" asks Sally. "We don't know." answer the Docs.
"What causes Lookemia?" Asks Sally.
"We don't know?" answer the Docs.
"Will this work this time?" asks Sally.
"We don't know." answer the Docs.
"God, why did this happen again?"asks Sally.
"I am not telling." answers God.
2 comments:
Sally thank you for the postings - they must be hard - the postings are why I don't ask many questions, and I look for them always.
The hardest answer from God is not, "No." It is, "Wait, be patient." For if God tells us yes or no, then you can be done not knowing. But God only tells you wait when he knows you are strong enough to handle it. Both you and Meb will get through this. One way or another.
Buy Krispy Kremes. Buy Starbucks. God and your doctors will take care of the rest.
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