Lots of activity. Lots of clean up. Lots to be thankful for. Lots of great friends. Lots of great family. Lots of things to think about. Lots of dishes to put away. Lots of things to think about and do. Lots and lots and lots.
But I guess the best part is that there will be lots more Christmas Seasons. It is so easy to say that you know things will "be alright" but the real test is in having that all rightness deep in your soul. It takes that kind of belief in Santa to make it seem real. Remember back when Santa was so real. He cared and he delivered. It was a simple relationship. You were good and you were reasonable on your list. You communicated the list and you waited. No doubts. Not questions that it was going to be great and the thing you wanted or in some cases, the perfect present that you did not know you wanted but Santa could see the want deep in your heart.
You know you have to believe even when the reality of and enormity of what Santa does starts to creep in to your Psyche. Flying Reindeer are not as hard to swallow as the size of a sled, the number of houses and the time thing alone.
It is the same with Leukemia. It takes a long time to even believe that your child has it. It is so intense at the beginning. The chemo and appointments and the expected side-affects that don't come and the unexpected ones that blind side you. Telling everyone, trying to make them feel better because if they feel better maybe the making them feel better will make you believe it is okay.
The "its going to be okay" is starting to sink in. The fact is we are surrounded and aware of so many that don't have a happy ending. So many that the littlest thing goes wrong and they never are allowed back on the path. Things you only hear about and never really know exists in the world.
We have been so blessed by our family, our friends, our doctors, my work. I could never repay those that have given so much to us. I can do stuff for other's and give back when I can.
We are winding down but then gearing up for the best year of all 2007.
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