This is when I have these thoughts that in the outside world make no sense at all. For example, today I was drinking my coffee and was checking in on my Facebook page. Small but present post.
There's a new post about Owen on Caring Bridge http://m.caringbridge.org/
Owen is the child of Jackie. They live back east but the internet has connected us. Owen had a transplant, he has been sailing through. Life has been good, they are getting ready for a Make-A-Wish trip.
Then BAM..... Leuikemia is back.
It just made me furious. Maybe because of where I sit, I see this sort of thing but "Why in the Hell".
I know there is no one to blame. I am certain there is no God or Supreme being involved. I know "things happen" but for most of our kids, our cancer kids, they have had ENOUGH.
I wish cancer was sort of like the mumps. You get it once and then you are done. You spend a few days on the couch listening to radio dramas (I had it when I was in 3rd grade and there were still radio soaps) and then you are done. I think Cancer is more like Chicken Pox. You have it, it is over but the threat of Shingles lingers on and on until your die.
I have had enough. I have had enough of relapse and new spots on scans and children dying. It is time for all of this to go away. I want to return to a world of Unicorns and rainbows and sparkles and shiney things.