More than Leaves are Falling.

Loving Fall. But after only three days, I came home and most of the leaves from this tree are on the ground.Sort of amazing how fast they lept off the branches and experimented with gravity. 

MEB's hair is going just as fast.  Last time, we had  months of shedding, some bathroom drains with some hair. This time it is movie falling out.  She brushes her hair and the brush is full.  It is full, it is so full and the waste basket becomes full of hair.  Good News she has the ability to grow lots of hair.  Bad News, she will have no hair by the end of the week-end.

Nothing, and I mean nothing, did I mention nothing about this process is pretty or familiar.  Nothing is the same, nothing from CP1 (Cancer Part 1), is helping us cope. If anything,it is making it worse because we feel like veterans and find that we are not even on the same planet.  We know cancer, we know how to fight cancer this is not cancer, this is some other creature that has invaded our lives. 

So how do we deal: Anger, frustration, humor, bacon, some quiet time at home to regroup.... like before we deal and try to remind ourselves that each day, every moment is something we have now.

  Gravity is still with us, rain is still with us, leaves grow back and hair grows back.  The leaves will be raked, the head will be shaved and then we will wait, we will wait and see.