Hope and then....

Lulu Ysarua Martinez is feisty and fighting!! She has went day and a half no blood pressure meds fever staying at 99 she has 3600 white blood cells she has a 1248 anc which means she now has cells that can help her body fight the infection..she is moving her eyebrows shaking her head flaring her nose and coughed. ..her lungs are still bad but they do have ventilator turned down to 4 0 and she is fighting machine and breathing on her own.. her sisters and dad and close friends all got to see it but the best was her baby sister Rylee Ruth squealing SHE IS DOING IT....today we cry tears of joy and high fives around the whole icu unit...Lulu is a fighter



Lulu Ysarua Martinez had rough night oxygen kept dropping changed ventilator to normal breathe pattern which she needs to be on she has had no other movement so they moving her down for mri...doctors are concerned we are seeing reflexes and not movement.she has been off sedatives for 3 days...
Ugg.....3.steps forward and 2 back will post after mri


Who knows.  It is just what it is.  This fighting cancer thing is so hard. But then maybe life is schizophrenic for a reason. 

Every day, every moment, we have to keep focused on what is important in our lives.  Keep in the front of our minds the important persons we love and value. 

Life changes. Stuff is just stuff. Connections with people is what is important. 

Just saying. It is the little dots and squiggles that make our life whole.